Posted 06 February 2013 - 08:46 PM
Seeing as it's been a while since I posted a blog, I figured now would be a good time seeing as I just got back from an eventful vacation, here goes.
From February 1st - 6th I was at Disney World, and I had a pretty good time. Went to all the parks and rode all the notable rides, why did I go down there you ask? Well my younger sister is on her high school's dance team and they had a National Championship for dance down there so I figured why not go with them?
Unfortunately they didn't make it to the finals but they did pretty good being 24th out of 44 teams that competed (the cut off limit for the finals were 22 teams), it does suck though since it's her Senior year and all her hard work ended like that, she took it well but I still felt pretty sad for her. But because they didn't make it to the finals instead of having 2 days to enjoy the park, we had 3 days which was nice, I may have mentioned this before in my earlier blog posts (that no one seemed to care about >_>) but my sister has a friend who is 19 now and was on her team before, shes nice and she is very attractive I do have a crush on her, but I think it's time to give it up. Why you ask?
Well it was on the first day of competition and she was an assistant coach on my sisters team, I had been told that she may like me, so I tried to talk to her more and get to know her a bit better since I knew she had a good personality. But I noticed something the same day, she never initiated a conversation towards me, ever. I was always the one to start a conversation and she would answer pretty quickly and then she'd go quiet again. At first I didn't notice this, I tried to make her laugh but all I got was a small chuckle and how is that a problem you ask? Well the coaches boyfriend, who is a pretty cool guy, reminds me a lot of myself actually has known her for a bit and I saw her laughing much harder when she was talking to him, more than she ever did in front of me, I couldn't make her laugh like that. At that moment it all made sense now, she had no interest in me at all, the rest of the day I was pretty bummed.
On the night of the first day we had a "Parent's Meeting +1" the "+1" being me, and we just sat around a table and started drinking, and I drank a bit to kind of forget what happened that day, I was still coherent but I had a pretty good buzz going the whole time. I was making them laugh and it was a good time, until they brought her up, they were asking if I was going to go out with her and how we would make a great couple. I kindly told them that it wasn't up to me, and that she wasn't interested in me I believe I told them: "I like her, but she doesn't like me. It sucks but that's just how it goes with me." Then some of the mothers and even the coach said that if they were younger and didn't have boyfriends/husbands that they would take me in a second. As much as that sounded nice of them to say, I took it as pity, of course I just said thanks and then they started talking about how some of the younger girls have crushes on me. Girls whose ages ranged about 15-18 years old, so no thanks. Basically everyone wants me to go out with her, but the one person whose opinion actually matters on the subject could care less if I was even breathing.
On the plane ride back I was reading The Hunger Games and reading about how Katniss slowly develops feelings for Peeta kinda made me think about the girl again, and why I liked her, and why despite it all, I still like her. I'm a middle child and an only son, so I don't think I have to explain how growing up my little sister got whatever she wanted where as I had to beg for everything. Well despite her being the oldest of 3 children she was always looked down upon by her mother and a little bit by her father, don't get me wrong her parents are great people, they just always try to compare her with her younger sister who listens to everything they say and stuff like that. I think I saw a little bit of myself in her, and I wanted to spoil her since I know how it feels to be looked down on because of a younger sibling.
Honestly I'm not sure how to move on when it comes to her, I still want to try but I know in my heart that it probably won't ever happen. I may not be the most interesting guy, the most attractive or the funniest, but I'll be damned if she'll ever find another guy who would treat her as well as I would.
Moving on to my job now, I got promoted about 4 months ago and everything was going just fine, I was actually working more manageable hours (5:30 am to 3:30 pm). But they kept of bringing in more people into the room that I was working in, so they had to move me to 2nd shift, the hours are 3:30 pm to 1 am, not terrible but that does put my hopes of playing YGO in RL in the trash again. But oh well.
My boss now is pretty nice, hes a lot more understanding than my previous boss, but it always seems like hes plotting something. Regardless I'm on his good side, but 2nd shift has basically screwed my social life seeing as I start work when everyone else gets off work. Its not terrible though, it allows me to go workout earlier in the morning with less people in there so I can workout harder now.
Well that's about all for now.